So lately I've been trying to reestablish contact with my Uncle on my father's side. I've talked a lot about it, driving my best friend insane. But I finally decided to do something about it last Saturday afternoon when I ran into him on a chance encounter.
The only way that I saw fit to correspond with him was to send him a letter telling him how I feel and that I wanted to sit down and discuss all of this stuff with him. That I didn't blame him at all for the things that my Dad had done. I'm really starting to get nervous about it because I know that by now the letter has been delievered to his home. I know that he has recieved it. Yet...I haven't heard back from him yet. In the letter I asked him to call me. And there hasn't been a phone call or even a letter back. It sucks. Big time. I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to be doing or thinking and I'm starting to rethink all that I did and said and that I should have just let it go...
It's just that I have always adored my Uncle. To pieces. And I was heartbroken when I couldn't see him anymore. I really want my future children to have the chance to have a wonderful relationship with him. I want him to be able to know my children. Not just know I have kids or what their names are. Just really know them and everything about them. I want to be able to call my Uncle and tell him when I'm having a bad day or what goes on in my upcoming college life. To tell him when my heart gets broken. To have him share in my joys and sorrows. Is that really to much to ask?
